Wednesday, March 14, 2012

a positive attitude

I meant to write this last week but never got around it. And now I'm feeling creative and outspoken so I'll do it now. Well, I think it was last Monday, I understood a valuable lesson a little better. I heard it was suppose to be nice so I wore shorts and planned to go skate the board with some friends after work. Needless to say this got me in a good mood. But when I went out to my car in the morning to go to work, I had a flat tire. It took me forever just to get one of the lug nuts off... like I was jumping on the 't' wrench thingy to get it loose for a lot and I think I bent the tool a bit. Then as I was jacking up the car, the support I was using bent a bit. I hoped that didn't hurt anything and just found another support farther back that looked more solid, which made me squish under the car and barely have any space to crank the jack. It got more challenging... but I'll move on with the story. All was still well, though, because it was nice, I was wearing shorts, and I was going to skate the board later. As I was putting the jack and huge 't' wrench thingy back in my trunk, I realized my skateboard wasn't in there... it was in Talia's car, and she was suppose to be at school until late that night. But I just figured I could get it later somehow later and I kept in my good mood. Then, I was obviously late to work because of the tire. Work was way busier than I thought. But it was still nice outside, so I was happy. After work, Talia was kind enough to meet me somewhere because she was between classes. So I got to see her for a bit and go skate and smile.
This just made me realize how sometimes I might get kind of crabby after having a flat tire and struggling with it for so long, being late to work, having a hard day at work, and forgetting me skateboard. But because I was already in a good mood and chose to stay in a good mood then all is well.
I hope I can always do that. No matter what happens, just tell myself that I'm in a good mood and I will continue in that manner instead of reacting to any unfortunate surrounding events.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

forget, love, and live.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahnynf7NiHM&feature=g-all&context=G27e181dFAAAAAAAAAAA

This song from Kenny reminded me of how uptight I am too often. Especially at work.

I too easily get caught up in a scary spiral concerning creating ideas and being happy. When I stop creating I'm not as happy, and when I'm not as happy I stop creating. I need to draw more. I need to make more music; and skate, and learn new talents, and not worry about what will happen or what people will think. I need to speak my mind and let life flow as it should.
Easier said than done? Maybe. Should it be? No.